“Behind every mask there is a face, and behind that a story”
I used to be the person who bottled up my emotions, taking the “I can handle it all” attitude. I learned how to be “strong”, “independent”, and an expert at masking what I was really feeling. But in doing I so created my own internal prison, locking every difficult emotion or painful experience away, thinking it was gone for good. As they say, “Out of sight, out of mind”, right? Yet I kept finding myself living out the same unhealthy patterns, feeling lost, hurt and overwhelmed because I didn’t know how to ask for what I needed and it was all bubbling inside me. For a long time I put everyone else first, refusing to change myself or look in the mirror. I thought that by helping everyone else heal from their own wounds, making sure others didn’t feel what I felt or go through what I went through it would solve my own problems. And that’s what led me to working in actual jails and maximum security prison for men. Talk about the perfect metaphor. It wasn’t until after a couple years inside that I started to realize the trauma I was holding on to from both inside and outside the walls was taking a huge physical toll on me and I was burnt out. That’s when I started to wake the F@#k up. I was sick of hiding in my self created prison, sick of running on autopilot just trying to get through every day rather than fully enjoy life, and sick of feeling like I had to handle it all unable to truly connect with the people that mattered the most to me. I finally said “enough is enough”. I decided to take control, step fully into the drivers seat of my life, learn how to manage, feel and process all of my emotions and turn my whole life around.
Struggle, burnout, anger and disconnection are all easy; Change is hard. But it can be simple and life transforming if you have the right guide to help you along the way. If you keep hearing the words “Something’s gotta give” repeating in your head, let me show you the way through. I can’t wait to help you start creating the life of your dreams.